Hello creative friends! Today I want to show you how I used my Tombow Dual Brush Pens to paint this page in my journaling bible.
It’s easy to use the Tombow Dual Brush Pens as a watercolour. All you need to do is scribble the ink on your blending palette and squirt some water on it. You can then use a paint brush to spread the mixture on your page. Easy peasy!!
I started my page by applying a thin layer of clear gesso. I know many artists who do not do this but adding water to my bible pages makes me nervous so I’m more comfortable with the added layer of protection. Once the gesso was dry I created the background with the Dual Brush ink and water. I then stamped the Prima Doll and used the same method to colour her in. For the words, I used my Proverbs 31 Woman stencil and some distress ink. This is only my second entry in my Interleaved Journaling Bible. The large blank canvas was intimidating at first but now I’m loving it!
I’ve been pondering the words of Proverbs 31 lately. The Proverbs 31 Woman seems so perfect that it feels impossible to become that kind of woman. Can you relate? Her to-do list is a mile long and yet she accomplishes everything. Some say she would of had servants and perhaps that is how I justify the overwhelming feeling that I can’t handle everything and simply don’t measure up. The truth is, I have enough time in the day to do every task that the Lord has asked me to do so why am I merely surviving and trying to get by? Why do I think that I need to do and be everything in order to be loved and accepted? It’s because I’ve forgotten my worth. I’ve forgotten who I am. My worth comes from the fact that I am a child of God. He made me, He created me to be in relationship with Him. He longs to pour His love on me not because my performance is acceptable to Him but simply because I am His precious beloved daughter. My daddy is the king of the universe, why on earth do I fear?
As I continue to meditate on this passage I see a lot more than a to-do list of all the tasks that I should be doing for my family. What I see is a woman who has her husband’s best interest at heart. I see a woman who does her husband good and not harm. I thought I was that woman. Early on in my marriage I made the choice that I would never talk negatively about my husband. I would not complain about him to others or even to him for that matter. I encouraged him in his work and took care of him. Sounds like a good woman doesn’t it? But God sees my heart and one day He convicted me and showed me that although my outward actions certainly seemed noble, my heart toward my husband was extremely rebellious. I was heart broken to realize this and I began to allow the Lord to change my heart. That was five years ago. I thought I had changed and was doing good BUT…
My heart continues to rebel. Against my husband. Against God. I see it now, again, in much more detail. I don’t want to keep holding onto this control. It’s exhausting. It’s time to stop running. It’s time to stop hiding. It’s time to get out of the driver’s seat and allow the king of the universe to take over. There’s no safer place to be than in the passenger seat right next to my Heavenly Father who is fully in control. Letting go of control is so very scary but the more I let go, the safer I feel. I need to rest in His loving embrace. I need to believe in every part of my being that He loves me more than I could ever imagine. He gave His very life to prove it to me and that should be enough. It is enough.
I leave you with this song. Listen closely to the words, they touch me right down to the very core of who I am.
